No, I didn't have days off from work. There was no
Margarita sipping on an exotic beach. But I did have an eight day rest
from the medications. That alone was worth it's weight in tequila. I
decided that it would also be a good time to take a break from the daily
posts and the blog. I suppose I needed a break from reality. Feeling
free of the grip that this monster has on me has been the mental rejuvenation I need to fight this next round of the battle.
When you have cancer, almost every decision is based on this fact. I
worry about the meds, what food to eat, resting enough, not
over-exerting myself, avoiding sick people as much as possible, watching
my stress, tests, procedures, appointments and the effect on the boys
(something I haven't been able to write about just yet). I took this
week to focus on normalcy. We did a little shopping for Connor's
Outdoor School trip coming up, ate out a couple times and visited with
friends. I even found a couple vintage pieces to add to my ever
expanding collection of things to redo when I'm back to normal. Matt
and I enjoyed Valentine's Day, sleeping in Saturday morning and lounging
all day watching movies. It has been a great week off in that regard.
Tomorrow begins the new treatment regimen. I'm apprehensive at best.
The unknown is the scariest part of all this as I have no idea what my
tomorrows look like anymore. I do know this one will be tougher than
the last but I am strong enough to handle anything. When strength is
the only option, you find out what you're made of.
~ still climbing mountains ~
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