When you're faced with your own mortality you have a
few options about how to go on with this new found awareness. You can
shrink away and feel helpless or it can empower you. For me it's made
me a little braver to speak my mind. I figure what's the worst that's
gonna happen? I already have cancer. So this weekend I had had enough
of a particular parents bad attitude and
minced no words in telling him so. It is worth noting this was 18
inches from his face and my knees were shaking either from adrenaline or
the fact I threw up 15 minutes earlier. Some things just need to said
and I'm blaming it on cancer. --------But you know what another awesome
excuse is? Because of this silly illness, I get to see friends I don't
always get to see. I've had a virtual parade of friends stop by. (Yes,
mostly with food which I L-O-V-E). It is amazing to see their
beautiful faces, hear their voices and feel the warmth of their hugs.
It occurred to me that I have really funny and fun friends.....each have
made me laugh and most have made me cry and surely ALL have made me
feel loved and so not alone. You all are my angels on Earth and if I
have to use cancer as an excuse to see you then it's well worth it!!!!
~ still climbing mountains ~
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