~ Day 10 ~ Shitty Day!

Yeah, I said it. No sugar coating today. I'm not perfect and always strong. This is hard. I am physically drained and the medications are taking their toll. My day started at 5am with the first round of meds, 6:30 vomiting, out the door by 7:20 to take the boys to school, work by 8:00, 8:05 realize I forgot the anti-nausea med at home, try to work but am so exhausted mentally and physically I can't concentrate and get little done, take a late lunch at 2:00 to get boys from school, 2:10 they are both sobbing about their grandfather who died on Friday. It brought their feelings to a head about possibly losing me and obviously I did not have the heart to leave them and go back to work so we ended up crying together for the rest of the afternoon. We are spent, we're ALL spent. I think we needed time to get it all out. We stripped away all the layers and brave fronts we are putting up and felt the pain. The emotional toll is overwhelming. At this stage in my posts I usually start trying to find the positive spin on everything but today, just this one day, I'm just not going to. Today was shitty!
By the way, feel free to like this post (or any other daily post). It lets me know you're out there and taking the time to go on this journey with me. It makes me feel less alone.
~ still climbing mountains ~